Insanity and me are forever real
These wounds just never seem to heal
I tried so hard to hold you all these years
You, bright eyed, left me and my insanity in tears
Do you notice any tears? No? Well that's what insanity is all about. That's what I am all about. And that's what I am gonna be all about.
There are times in your life when you don't need to pretend anymore. Everything just swishes past by you like a rocket leaving you and your inner animal yearning for happiness while you're sitting forlorn with a black grimace as your damn perennial countenance. When wind decides to land by and render the surface with cold colours, you drop heavy salt from those dull eyes to make the surface wet and slithering. Everything and anything doesn't seem to work when you have anger, irritation, frustration and vex running through your nerves. Everything, not even the wind.
Why do I get irritated so often?
Why am I so much temperamental when I know I don't have to be?
Why do I want to use words which I know are bad?
Why is me a strange man each day?
I spit words here with a diminished spark of finding answers; for finding a new me; with a hope of killing me. Maybe it's just a game; maybe it's just a phase; maybe it's just Love.
This is a theory of a deadman which says I can never change your mind if it's not love. I am rather blind if I see you walking away without me. I am rather correct if my insanity is still you and I am rather seriously insane if I'll still try to hold you, even in my tears, all further years.
All of you who read this and feel sympathetic or maybe irritated are free to comment their heart here. Just say what you really feel and want me to know. Though I might not take your suggestions and philosophies seriously. You know, I'm growing with this fucking insanity of my own.
16 comments:
You and insanity is something I cannot imagine together. Eccentric is the right word according to me to describe you. I agree "There are times in your life when you don't need to pretend anymore." - because you reach a stage where you are just simple you. You are not worried about being judged because finally you accept yourself.
Confused?? Me too!
Everyone is insane. Its the truly stupid & truly smart who ignore it.
Rachit! Stop asking all those tough questions and enjoy your state. Insanity is rare, priceless and gives rise to some best thoughts. Take care! hugs!
I don't feel sympathetic, but I would definitely start to feel irritated if this insanity starts to eat into your studies, social life or whatever that you like to do. Untill that starts to happen, it's really about time to do its job and brush this layer of love and loosen up this clutch of hope.
Rude but straight up advice. If you engage in any of these things, stop now.
-listen to songs that make you dismal
-sit alone and think.
-anything that speaks past, photos, messages, etc.
Follow it for eternal peace, that is if you want to let go. :)
Insanity is okay.. just don't allow it to rule you. You sound frustrated, may be fishing for a change or something you wanna be. These kinda phases are wrapped along with life. Shrug at it and move on.. :) Take care!!
+1 to Usama comment :)
GBU
Arti
Sometimes i do get irritated and temperamental as u have written. Yet its not due to love..
Certain emotions cannot be controlled but we need to think of the implications and then react to such situations
Lets discuss the arcane case
of the gene-insane...
trust me most of us suffering from this, though intensity varies but we all r kinda insane in this sane world :P
Hang in there pal and try n keep your boat of [In]sanity afloat !!!
It's a combination of love and life. You should not take any comment seriously on this issue as it's your own life which teaches you more than any words of wisdom.
Loved the first four lines of the post!
To all the wonderful people who have blessed me by commenting: I adore you all and thank you with the rhyme of my heart and I just have reached to a one line, kinda sane, conclusion which states, 'It's all about you and your truth about holding on and letting go'. :)
@Saru, @Jyoti, @Rakrithy, @Arti, @Shreya, @Usama, @Arch and @Me: Insanity is believing that you're insane. Right?
So, what does your insanity look like?
Guess m a little late in replying..
never mind..
what I gather from your post is, that you are going through a girly mood swing where you don't know whats happening and don't wish to know either :P lol..
jokes apart.. i can very well relate to your post.. I was experiencing similar feelings sometime back where I had lost it completely. Its always good to vent it out in some way..
or listen to peppy songs (I listened to absolutely crappy Punjabi songs for 2 days and felt much better :P)
And whatever may be the reason behind this stupid feeling, just remember, its momentary :)
its very fuzzy... hard to describe in words :P
but it's there 4 sure !!!
@Saloni: Girly mood swing? Arrey kabhi kbaar ladko ka bhi Dil tut ta hai madam! :P
Yup, rightly said. Thanks Saloni. This is indeed one of your biggest comments here! ;)
@Jyoti: C'mmon, I'm dying to hear and feel your insanity! ;)
Pretty insane and so like me;)
@Saru: Haha! Hi-5! ;)
let's not turn this place in a sane-insane battleground :P
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